It's been a rough few days...

The past few days have been one big PIT! My dad has just been getting sicker and sicker it seems. Today he went to his Dr he looked one look at him and sent him to the hospital. My dad is having horrible pains from his tumor and in his side. They have found a blockage and they need to take care of it right away because he isn't able to eat or go to the bathroom. While they have been trying to figure this our it has been bad news after bad news after bad news. My dad now has a bag for his kidneys and an Isolostoym bag. Poor guy has been through it.

This has been very hard because we also found out the chemo isn't working and that we have very few options left. I have watched my dad for the past few weeks become extremely week and a former shell of my dad. It's weird though because he's still in there. I have also had to come to the realization that this could also be my last few months with him and that has been a very hard pill to swallow. Realizing this has made me  every once and a while just break down in tears. I'm also struggling with getting quality time with my dad and still being there for my children. So feeling like I am feeling them or him has also put me in tears. Jacob has been amazing and every day I am so thankful for him.

Just hanging with my homie. Just got a nice dose of morphine and is in "happy land " as Eli would put it. I wonder if he thinks he driving the roads to the cabin again

Hanging with Mamo as Papa gets another procedure. She was confused for a few seconds Brooke Sheilds is pregnant? Until we realized the magazine is from April 2003. We found the room where magazines go to die. Nothing is before 2008.

 You would think he just entered Disneyland he hasn't had anything to eat or drink for 2 days. He can have Popsicles and jello. He's so excited!