Christmas week in Cali

When my dad died hospice told us that 3 months out the family will really grieve and it will be a hard time. Even harder then the initial loss. Well for us 3 months out was Christmas...which seemed awful. So we all decided we were going to change Christmas this year. We went on a Cali trip. It was more like summer vacation and I really think it helped us get through our first Christmas with out my dad. We had so much fun. We went to six flag, sea world, Universal studios. Coronado, the beach, hotel Del, and the San Diego zoo.

At Seaworld Shamu show we sat in the splash zone. Eli wasn't happy about this and freaked. We bought a towel and that calmed him down. The towel kept Eli, Liam and myself pretty dry however Jacob and Lili they got soaked. Jacob dried pretty quick and I always have a change of clothes for Lady Lili.




On our way to SeaWorld my mom and Lee rode with us. We didn't have the middle seat in my mom didn't care she sat there so happy hold Lili's hand.


Jacob took this picture at Hotel Del. Look at those 3 cute little heads.


Jerel is Hilarous and this is him acting like Chase. When chase was little he would pretend to be a dinosaur. It was funny, but this picture might be just as funny


In San Diego Utah State football team was staying at out hotel because they were there for a bowl game. When we went to the zoo they were there too. Whenever Liam saw a football player he would run up to them grab their leg and pretend he was tackling them...or was he really trying to tackle them?


Liam's head poking out from under my legs...he's such a monkey



We loved Universal Studio I think it was a group favorite and we will be going back again!




Jacob doesn't like ride so he took the kids and hung with his parents and Adam, While I went to 6 flags and pretended to be 16 for a day. It was fun, but 6 flags is kinda gross.




Sana Monica Pier was a blast spent the whole afternoon there.








Sunday morning we went to breakfast at a 100% black diner. It was yummy food in a bad part of town. We stuck out like a sore thumb in a church clothes BUT everyone was really nice. Jacob even made some friends and bought some pirated movies.


I took this picture strictly to get the two poster behind them. Michael Jackson and Barack Obama.

Missing someone

My peak today was I found 12 voicemails from my dad that I thought was lost forever. The voicemails range from just checking on me, butt dials to even happy birthday wishes. I feel like its a little gift from heaven.

My pit was my kids stayed up late and I still have a lot to do! I'm done being a mom for today. 

I never want to forget the sweet moments I shared with Eli and Liam this morning. I as crying listening to my dads voicemails. This upset the boys and they asked why I was crying. Eli was still confused and said mom he's around you he's an angel. I said I know but I still can't hear his voice and I miss him and his voice. To which Eli replied and said oh like if you died I would be sad and miss your voice. I started to say yes but Liam interrupted and said and I would miss your warm hair. This was so sweet because Liam is always pinching my hair. I asked him one day while he was doing it to Lili why he was doing that and he said he liked it because it was warm. This was so sweet because I knew this was something Liam would honestly miss if I died. It melted my heart.